~Bored Bored in Borneo~

Specially for you....

2008-12-07T07:05:00.002+08:00

Because

Because of you,
I'll always smile.
Wonder if you'll remember,
the times we spend together.
From long ago,
till we're twenty two,
I've never let you down.
Though I admit my temper sucks,
but those were in the past.
I've change a lot,
people can see,
I'm sure you too noticed.
But one thing I'm sure that has never changed,
my love for you remains.
I want you to smile,
I want you to know,
that I'll always be true.
There are times when I'm missing you much,
still never though of giving up.
This feeling of time and distance,
is also an experience.
Once we manage to overcome,
and there'll be jubilant.
My heart and my soul,
I give you my all,
because I love you so.
For you and me,
were meant to be,
this you've got to believe.
We came this far,
after that much,
people think we might not last.
My promise to you are as follows,
please spend time to read it through.

I'll give you happiness,
I'll make sure that happens.
I've loved you once,
I love you now,
I'll still be loving you forever.
I'll do anything I can,
upon my ability,
just to make you happy.
The words I said,
and things I do,
will always be for you.

Never ever leave me again,
I'll not be able to take the pain.
I promise to whoever it is,
I'll always protect you.
My love for you,
being so true,
I'll die,
if I lie.

Just bear in mind I'm working hard,
for our future soon to start.
I'll be back once my chores are done,
the first thing I'll do is to give you a hug.
For now till then,
till I'll see you again,
please take care of yourself.
If you fall sick,
I'll let you see,
the pain inflicts in me.
I guessed I've said enough,
and clear to let you know.
My arms are there,
always be there,
ready for you to hold.
Now Laopo you should know how much,
you actually mean to me.
You're someone special,
in my heart,
who I'll treasure forever.
And between now and then,
Till I'll see you again,
I'll be loving you,
Please love me too.

I love you......

Thanks Laopo

2008-12-04T11:28:00.002+08:00

Thanks Laopo for the G.U.E.S.S Watch...

Thanks Laopo for the D.I.Y Birthday Card...

Thanks Laopo for the Red Sotong...

Thanks Laopo for the Book of Memories...

Thanks Laopo for putting in so much effort...

Thanks Laopo for the sleepless nights she spent...

Thanks Laopo for the surprised she gave me...

Thanks Laopo for making me feel she was with me...

Thanks Laopo for loving me as much as I loved her...

Thanks Laopo for being understanding while I'm not around...

Thanks Laopo for not neglecting me...

Thanks Laopo for being morally supportive...

Thanks Laopo for waiting...

THANKS LAOPO!

Happy 22nd bday

2008-12-02T04:28:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me

Happy Birthday to Jun Tai

Happy Birthday to Me

Thanks Laopo in sending over the presents.. *touched*

a "Guess" watch, red sotong and my Scrap book~~

2008-10-25T04:33:00.002+08:00

The memorable and happy times we spent together..

9th Oct Awaiting touch down singapore... Exciting! Looking forward too... Finally... This day, went to cwp walk around to meet my friend to take her white DELL lappy... No fighting of lappy with her sister le!! Then went out with gene and sylvia, treat them to makan as promised.. After that, to KTV to celebrate guorong's birthday!! too bad e photos' not with me now... will upload again... =) Then time for the both of us... On my CB400 Superfour to Mustafa!! bought ya.. quite alot of daily necessities.. haha.. and a Samsung L100 camera for onli $209! these are e photos we took using dis cam.. straight after we bought.. ;)

10th Oct Went to sim lim square to buy her harddisk.. walk around... met up with gerald in the evening time, went to plaza sing to customize our ring from couples lab... then to the cathay to buy our NUM sandels! sweet~~ met up with my sister and brother in law too, to makan sakae sushi! my fav!! haha... ok..

walk around in e Wine atrium.. guess who we saw, our sec sch fren, li pei! so long din see her... =) so anyway went together with them to this thai pub... its very interesting... at shenton way if im not wrong ya.. =)

photo took after our pubbing.. fr left, juntai, guorong, yongping, lester... so pathetic, baby drank a cup of coke chivas onli... and she burped? and vomitted...

11th Oct Went to bugis area, but before! it seems going to rain.. so stop at cwp walk around 1st.. went to find her scn fren, emily.. still remenber tat she said Im 'Bengish'! haha... Then to take baby's specs from kkh, went to golden mile to buy our coach tics to genting, to mustafa again shop shop... bought a nike bag from dere too...

this is e mini carpark in mustafa...

After that went to Sembawang.. thought of going to guorong's bbq.. but so sorry, its start at 7pm.. so cant possibly make it, as we need to pack our stuffs to reach lavender by 10pm.. So dropped by Sun plaza to walk walk... =) Night falls, went back to wdl to pack our stuffs.. Met baby at our bus stop to take cab, with her parents acc her down too... =0

awaiting for the coach to come.. transtar travel...

in the coach, baby writing my white card for mi... =)

12th Oct Reach Genting!! its so damn cold.....

the model of the whole genting situated in 1st world hotel..

Grace, Gregory, Gerald.. the G3... haha...

Awaiting to check in our theme park hotel.. so walk around in first world plaza, took pictures den to this coffee bean in resort hotel and... Slack....

Ya, anyway took all sorts of funny pictures.. for more details pls refer to baby's friendster ya.. =)

Went Ripleys' Believe It or Not.... interesting! too bad gerald's not following us..

went shopping too... and bought these clothes, a cap and a belt for her... just walk around in 1st world plaza... ;) that night thought of going down to KL to clubbing de... tats y she bought tat suit above... but somehow she kind of sick? told gerald.. she dun mind me acc him down to KL.. but ya, gerald din wanna go le... so ya, walk the whole day, tired! slept too...

13th Oct Woke up in noon time.. To outdoor theme park!!

some space thingy.. so lame...

in the boat to dinosaurland!

went to play those carnival games.. spent quite alot.. and these are the bears we've got! =)

queuing up for the antique cars...

because of ya, too many passengers (bears), so ya, we need to sit in 2 antique cars.. =P

we've played archery..

we played flying coster, baby's not, cuz kind of dizzy le, after the corkscrew and drop shot...

thats my bath tub and our stuffs la...

14th Oct Went walk around in genting agn.. tot of going down to KL de.. but its quite late le.. 3 plus pm...

outside outdoor themepark

thats the cap we bought! suit her right?? pretty!!

I look cute in this pic.. loves it!

went to sushi king for our brunch cum dinner..

thats how much we ate...

went to genting hotel, for this 2 hours ktv session..

our NUM sandels~~

Back to our hotel room... to... change her......... ok.. dun talk bout it ya...

ya.. did all sorts of role playing... haha.. *shake* "hey baby, are you ok??"

went back to our hotel after buying some snacks n sovenirs.. played poker card.. drink beers, for her, of course jolly shandy la.. dun like beers... after tat i oso quite hot, so nice to sleep.. last day in Genting le... misses...

15th Oct Packing up our stuffs... Checking out hotel... decided not to go KL, cuz bring too much stuffs le.. quite ley chey..

we are so patriotic for msia national song!! haha.. kidding...

in the coach straight down to singapore, sun plaza..

Back to singapore.. quite wasted of our 1 whole day trip down to singapore.. reach home at round 9 plus.. put our stuffs, changed and straight went to my sister house! no steamboat to eat.. but still got Wii to play!! =)

16th Oct Went in to JB holiday inn to shop shop.. made our red specs.. bought some games.. custom made our polo tee and t-shirt!! haha.. so nice... quickly rush back to singapore to have dinner with them! in ajisen!

den went back baby's home to take baby's bowling ball.. its so heavy!! 13 pounds! and now its in my house.. misses~

17th Oct Took our rings in amk hub.. walk around to wait for that guorong.. Met up with my frens for dinner steamboat in bugis... After that then to pub...

Was so anxious.. Practice quite a few times of this magic with this paper and fire thingy and the ring... Gonna proposed to her tonight! Started by this magic.. Invited baby to stand up... Knelt down in front of her.. So nervous... When victor quieten down the crowd.. More irritating nervous!! Didnt know wat to talk.. Dunno wat im talking too... Yu wu lun ci... haha... Finally, i did asked... And the answer i got is, "Yes, i do.." Happy!! So ya, im engaged and booked and tied down!! haha... Thanks to guo rong for videoing it down... Memorable...

Our Engagement Rings..
PS: Laopo, I Love You

So short yet so long

2008-09-16T09:10:00.002+08:00

16th September 2008, Tuesday

Today's gonna be really really busy for me. Loads and tonnes of work to be done, yet I'm still updating my blog!! -_-"
As all can see, my blog skin has been changed, no longer as emo as before... no longer as saddist as before... no longer as lonely as before.. all because I'm not gonna be on my own again, as I have my Laopo with me, supporting me, motivating me, waiting for me, love me, care me... =) Making me the happiest person on earth, and at the same time, the most fortunate...

Had a little argument few days back, cos she's going to sentosa after her post night~ *faintz*
She was going with her bunch of ex-collegues, which also includes him... But I swear, I trust baby and am pissed off because she's going straight after post night.. I suggested she take the day off, so she could enjoy herself... but ya.... of cos she didn't want to as the allowance for night shift is high! End of the day, I compromise, leave the decision up to her, because I love and respect her...

Later on, she decided to give the sentosa trip a miss, and instead just turn up for the dinner... I know Baby just didnt want me to be worried... She loves me too... All after all, we're good, doing great and managing well. Had a good talk and ya, she knows what I'm thinking and I too know what she thought of...

Baby's been waking up as early as 3plus in the morning to gimme morning call, for the fear that i couldn't wake up on time to work. I'm really touched, sincerely touched... Never in my life has anyone persist on giving me morning calls at those wee hours.. She did... Though a million times i told her not to, she insisted... Once again, she loves me more then I could have expected. Silly her~~

Anyway, days are passing, time is flying... For all we know, its only another 24 days and I'll be back in Singapore... Looking forward, really.... The schedule I've come up with for my stay in Singapore... almost everyday spending with Baby... I've been away from her... and when I return, I'm gonna dedicate most of my time to her... She told me 'I need you'... That melts me... She calls me Laogong in her sweet gentle tone.... that melts me even more! To many out there, whatever she has done for me might be small deal... Buut to me, she means the whole world... simply because, she's waiting for me... alone~

p.s : Baby, I know u love me just like I do, I know u care bout me and want me to be the best in everything, but i really hope u'll stop giving me morning call because I dun wanna depend on u.... in stead, I'll let u depend on... rest assure, Laogong's gonna be always always be there for u =)
Love's all around, especially when u didnt realise... Just like me and her, G&G!

What else can I say??

2008-09-08T23:37:00.004+08:00

8th September 2008, Monday

Moment of silence again and yet again,
people changes rapidly I don't know what to say.
Even though I'm putting in my best,
why does the situation still remains the same?

Sometimes no doubt I'll start to think this way,
am I the damn culprit why her feelings changed?
Now that I've won her heart she keeps assuring me,
insecurity was the reason why this had to be.

Contradictions happened and someone starts to hint,
that she hated me so much wouldn't even talk to me.
I thought happiness was what should surround us,
only to find out that was wishful thinking on my part.

After so many rounds of playing hide and seek,
finally she came back to me with her love and care so deep.
I wouldn't want to share but it was so hurting,
Said I was fake and a big bad guy my forte was bragging!

I've put in effort I've put in time no matter how busy I am,
just to ensure she's happy though we're at different ends.
Now let me say this once again and announce it to the world,
Who I need and want to be with is none other then HER.

Allow me to make my promise and swear upon my life,
if I'd ever let her down, GOD please let me die.
Just to complete my vow I'll tell you people who she really is,
this girl who have touched my heart, is GRACE, SIA XIN YI.

34 more days and counting down...

2008-09-04T13:48:00.002+08:00

4th September 2008, Thursday

Recently been rather busy... gotta work, gotta pei baby chat~~ quite stress also... buut still able to take it... People are complaining that my blog is too wordy. So from now on, I'll try K.I.S.S, which is keep it short simple.

Nothing much to update, also no new pictures to share. Just that I'm really looking forward to be back in Sg in oct... Miss her so much, miss my bike so much... Then my friend needs help also. KJ is troubled, shared her woes with me... think she reallt trust me alot... thanks her for the trust.

But it also hurts me in a way that my friend is suffering from stress and troubles.. how i want to help her as much... but my ability is just that much... =x

Next thing is Baby... sometime she emo, i also dunno why... then sometimes i emo... -_-" like hell of a taking turn thing... But like she said, we're both strong enough... jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

34 more days to go nia~ =)

*i miss my baby, love my baby.... *

Sick and Emo~

2008-08-24T04:26:00.002+08:00

24th August 2008, Sunday

Am on duty.... feeling better from my sore throat, running nose and mild fever =) Baby was so worried la... I'm sorry... =x
It all started few days back when i was watching 'WANTED' with Roy back in our dorm... I ate 2 bottles of pringles, 1 whole packet of Wang Wang Xian Bei, and one can or cheese sticks one shot!!

Then the next day my throat started to itch a little... yet I carried on drinking and eating peanuts while playing chess and checkers upon the invitation on one of my colleagues. The very next day woke up with serious hang over, sore throat and running nose. Yesterday, fever developed. My whole body was so tired... But in order not to let baby worry too much, I talked on the phone with her, Msn with her.... Continue to sleep late even though she had wanted me to turn in early to rest my sick body.

Recently Baby has requested to talk lesser on phone because she wants me to have more rest, instead of sacrificing my sleep to accompany her. She loves me alot... But I too love her so much! I wanna talk to her, keep her away from the feelings of loneliness... I want her to feel my presence... That's why I'm sacrificing my sleep... I want her to be happy even though I'm not by her side. There are times when I see the sms she sent me, I immediately want to fly back..... I know I can't. I have to deal things the sensible way. It's a test, a test of time, distance and how strong the feeling is... I won't compromise my job... Without a stable job, I wouldn't be able to provide her with the kind of life we want. We have plans.... plenty of them. We'll work hard toward the common goal we set for right, Baby? I won't give up half way, you can't too...

Have already booked the hotel at Genting Highland. its confirmed that baby, me and Gerald are making our way up in October when Gerald and I are back in town for our home leave... Booking has been confirmed. So happy. We're finally going to Genting. My last trip was 12 years back. This time round I have Baby with me... =) So fortunate, feels so blissful...
On our way back from Genting, we'll also stop by KL, and JB for clubbing trips, shopping trips. I promise to get Baby a cushion for her to hug on when I'm away from her. She also suggested we make a set of spectacles, same design same colour.. but it has gotta look good on both of us.... Gerald and I will get our tattoo of friendship done in KL most probably..

Am so looking forward to the trip. The very next thing I'm really expecting is spending time with Baby and her two sisters. I'll be bringing them out for dinner, Ktv session, maybe bowling maybe ice skating... depends... But all after all, I just want to have a chance to understand them more, interact with them more.. vice versa...

It feels so great when Gene told me, 'actually I only dislike u like 10%' ..... that means its improving... The feeling of being disliked is really so so so so terrible... Been chatting with Baby on the phone, and her sister thru ebuddy... I'm really really putting in any effort I can to make everyone feels happy as well as easy... Hope one fine day, I'm appreciated... =)

p.s Everything I do, I do it for you~~ Baby.... countdown 46 days!! *Loves and Misses and Hugs and Kisses*

Cute Cute stuffs!

2008-08-18T05:38:00.005+08:00

18th August 2008, Monday

Just happened to forgets bout this! This is so damn cute la!! Haha... hey I tell u, u guys really must must not miss this.... I swear its damn funny!!

This was the original of Alvin and the Chipmunks...

And this was the newer Version!! Haha~~ Photoshop by me and produce by me also.
Roy, Gerald, Gregory (from left to right)

Thats all folks!

A side of me where no one knows

2008-08-18T04:07:00.008+08:00

18th August 2008, Monday

Yesterday (17/08/08) went off with Gerald and Roy. We found the white adidas track pants finally, and decided to get one each. Apart from that, I bought some iron-on flags of Singapore, Brunei, Thailand and Korea. I wanted to iron them on to my back pack de lo... but dun think it will stay there, need to sew as a double protection plan!! Haha... I also spent 41bucks on a red zippo lighter, and I really like it so much, I'm not gonna use it.. Haha...

Talked to baby almost everyday now. Don't want her to feel insecure. Its also because I missed here every now and then, so had to call her and talk to her, hear her sweet gentle voice. She's very sweet lo, midnight 3am call me to wake me up, knowing I have to start work at that kinda weird timings... sent me sms and sometimes want me to hang up cos she dun want me to have so little sleep. Actually before that I usually sleep latest by 1+am de lo... But now its different le... Cos its no more about me and myself. Its about US!

Baby also mentioned to me that her daddy hinted to meet me for dinner. I dunno what's gonna happen la, but currently the situation is, I'm not ard in sg. Gotta wait till Chinese New Year 09 le ba~~ Then there's gene and sylvia. I promised to take them out for dinner when I'm back in sg. Of cos all I want is to know them better, let them understand me more also. I dun want things to end up with only me and baby being happy, then the rest of the people around us all with sunken face... I'm trying very hard to make everyone happy, but not compromising baby's and mine.

It's really not easy to maintain a long distance relationship, but I'm not giving up!! I mean, with baby, I'm sure we'll be able to cross this obstacle and test of time and distance. Baby, jiayou!!

K la... enough of my craps... now, lets take a look at the cam whoring session back in my dorm...

*ignore the background, a lil messy...anyway main point is me doing the moves and stunts =) *

Hanging me mid air (difficulty ***)

Back slunt 45 degree ( dificculty **)

Balancing and posing (difficulty ***)

Doing push-up on a human vault (difficulty ***)

2 x flooring moves with Roy (difficulty ***)

This one's hard on Gerald, but still nice posing!!

This was my candid expression when I fell and knocked both my knees -_-"

See carefully, I'm supporting with only 2 hands as pivot points (difficulty ****)

That's Gerald and me, doing a mirror image (difficulty **)

Now This is Specially for Baby... Taekwondo 's Back Thrust (difficulty TBC)

How bout a Hand stand with legs split? (Difficulty ***)

And this is hard, windmill (difficulty ****)

Hand Stand Jumps (difficulty ****)

Thats what I wore, The new Adidas pants I bought!! =)

Kinda hard to explain what i'm trying to do (dificculty **)

This is real hard -_-" (difficulty *******)

Thats the end of my current post, hope I've taken everyone thru a journey of the UNKNOWN Grego... =) Have a nice day and thanks for viewing!

ps. baby seems like gonna fall sick le eh.. must take good care of urself ok? we'll talk every night, as much as we can. =) Love you always, Misses you lots, Owe u some hug and kisses too...

Back in Action!

2008-08-09T00:13:00.002+08:00

9th August 2008, Saturday

First of all, Happy Birthday Singapore!! Singapore has been independent for 43 years as of today. From the old tiny island, to what it has transformed into today. As a Singaporean, I'm proud of her fast growing economy, the racial harmony, democratic society. I love my country and I hope everyone else too.

Coincidentally, today, 9th August also happens to be Shiming's Birthday. Everyone else were celebrating for him. He's drunk at the end of 1/2 hour... -_-" And the guys which includes Gerald, Roy, Jason, Lee Siang, Chee Keong and Elijah decided to perform a prank on him on this very special occasion. They carried him and his bed to the open space!!! OMG poor Shiming... He'll get the shock of his life when he wakes up! Lol....

Anyway, very busy past like 10 days. Didn't went for any off to town or so. Had this stupid Audit Check thing. One thing I'm really happy about is the approval of my Leave applied. My bloody boss didn't want to sign it initially. Almost had a dispute with him as it was my entitlement, not a privilege... But after the Audit Check, it was found that under my supervision and hard work, there are no discrepancies, surplus or major findings. =) So damn happy, sense of achievement...
That was when, my bloody boss signed my Leave Application happily, willingly... -_-"

My promise to Baby was to return for her, accompany her. I'm now sure that I'll be able to fulfil that promise... Happy!!! I know she must be very happy too... Genting, here we come!!!!
Baby gave me alot of motivation, love and concern. Understanding me as well. I love her alot as well... looking forward to my return.... =) 2 more months to go only! Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!!

I'm too tired to post a long post. Just wanna tell everyone, cherish what you have around you, the people, the things, events and all. I'm the HAPPIEST man in the world now. Baby, with ur love, ur support, I'm sure I need nothing else. You are my everything. I give my all to you... =)

BABY, AI SI NI LE

Pictures From Performances

2008-07-30T16:22:00.007+08:00

Gerald, We'll always support u!!

Jason, Roy, Me & Gerald, just right before I go on stage for my singing

Group photo, what a close bonding we have!?

That's the Lion Dance performance, I'm a supporting crew, beating the drum =)

Paying respect to the VIPs...

Adrian (head), Reagan (cymbals), Me (drum), Zul (tail), Jordan (cymbals)

On the stage.... so nervous!

The superstar finally sings, full of confidence =)

The entrance of performers, lead by Me, and two other singers

Do i look like some kind of superstar?? haha!!

Interacting with audience from different sides.

Sing Sing Sing!!!

2008-07-28T17:35:00.004+08:00

26th July 2008, Saturday

Today has finally come. I'm going up on stage to perform a Chinese song tonight. Last night was on duty, so this morning after handed over, was damn tired and went to sleep straight after showering. When my phone finally rang at 2pm, it was the rehearsal before the actual thing in the evening. I woke up, and rushed over to where everyone else was at the MPC. When my name was announced and it was my turn to run through the song, I cocked up everything... My voice box was totally dry, closed, and couldn't project my voice at all. At that very moment when the Sound Engineer told me 'Mister, can you sing louder and project you voice please?' , my heart sank... morale totally gone. All along, I've been singing and practising on this song and then now I'm unable to sing it, due to the high pitches which I couldn't reached due to my tiredness... =X

After my song ended, commander talked to me, encouraged me... everyone encouraged me with some really nice words... but I myself know that it sucked alot!! How would this be? What am I going to do?? Ran all the way back to bunk, search through the folder for another song... time left was like 2 hours before the actual thing start... was almost on the verge of escaping reality... then I chose Chong Lai eventually as it somehows goes to mean 'restart/ all over again' , which perfectly describes me and her... Didn't had time to practice on that song at all as I need to shower, change into my performing clothings and styling up... But the heck cares bout that... Just gonna go up on stage and make a fool of myself in the end I thought.

Then Baby sent me an sms just before the actual thing, just before I was about to go up on stage and perform... this is what it says...

'Baby... Jiayou for ur singing performance... even if ur singing sucks, I still love it... =) '

So sweet of her... and it worked... at the end of the day, I enjoyed my performance, it was near perfect. No running out of the melody, no voice crack due to high pitches, and best was, my movement on the stage was so stunning. The usual me would have just stand there from the start till the end... but, I managed to walk around the stage, interacting with the spectators... won applauses in between breaks of the song... Wrapped up the whole this with a series of my usual humming of melodies... =)

Her sms really had affected me alot... I actually won the most applauses among all the other performers... So happy.... Baby, Thanks.... I Love You~

After the whole event, people start telling me how well I did... Great Job... things like that.. I guess they were really surprise by the difference of my voice during that final rehearsal in the afternoon and on the actual thing itself.... =) Most proud of all, is when the event is over and people starts leaving... Commander thanked me for putting up a very good performance, chief said I did a great job... and it shocked me alot when Commander Lancer actually stop me and shook my hand, talk to me and ask me some questions as follows...

Q1) Why do u like to sing? Is it a part time hobby or something?
ans: No sir, it's just that music's always been a great interest of mine. And I love to sing... because when I sing, people enjoy as much as I do....

Q2) Your vocal range's really wide... did you undergo any professional training?
ans: Yes sir, I went thru some basic singing training lesson by a famous teacher/song writer in singapore..

He wrapped things up by saying he'll be looking forward to seeing me perform again.... lol.. So proud lo... the others must be thinking of what were he telling me... haha =x

Was really tired after the whole thing, because the day after, I had to get ready, because I had another performance to go, this time the Lion Dance... Went back to room, showered and then brought my laptop to office and MSN with Baby... webcam and chatted the whole night till morning...

Its so great to be able to see her, hear her voice through mic and speakers... She actually stayed up to accompany me... because i had to wake up early but i decided not to sleep -_-" So nice of her to stay up just for me, so sweet of her for the things she said, messaged me... Loving her more and more each day, missing her every moment....

ps. If Baby's gonna read this, I just wanna say, I Love You.... and Thanks for the smll lil things you do for me... in the eye of others, they might be nothing at all, but in mine, its already everything!! Love u....

I'VE BEEN LIVING A LIE

2008-07-22T22:23:00.004+08:00

22nd July 2008, Tuesday

Been rather busy and this is gonna carry on till 27th July 08. In case u people are wondering what I'm busy at, I'll fill u in. Am selected for a singing performance, lion dance performance, on 25th and 27th respectively. Been rehearsing and rehearsing. Then there's this preparation for the incoming training frame which resulted in tonnes of paperwork. The tentage thingy in the MPC (multi-purpose-court) is really a big headache. How to decorate? What material? What kinda theme? so on and so on and we're only left with last 3 and a half days to finish it up for the D&D.

On the other hand, it's bout me and her. I know people will start cursing me for appearing out of nowhere and stepping into some other couple's relationship. I know there's no point for me to explain much. I've never stop thinking at all. Fact is, no matter how much I thought, there's no way I can do anything at the moment, and so applies to her too. Did I really appeared out of nowhere? Am I doing something bad?

Fact has it that, I didn't appear from nowhere all of a sudden. I've always been there even before I left for my work over in Borneo. Its just that, chemistry took place while I was back in Singapore in June 08 for my home leave. I didn't planned for anything. Why am I being called despicable?? That's a very hurtful word to use. It's such a coincidence that her relation with her bf has turned sour due to their personal reason... and I just happened to be there... u can say I went back to Singapore at the wrong time, but in the first place, I know nothing between she and her bf. Truth is my feelings has always been there, kept silent from most people, because I know, YES I KNOW, that she's attached. It was only after I left once again, that made her realise her feelings too. This kinda things, cant blame her too. Any normal girls would hope for someone to dote on her, love her, spare some thoughts for her, hold her hands tight when things happen, sense of security, happiness, blissfulness. But am I suppose to be blamed for her relation turned sour? Initially that was my concern, that I'll be destroying their relationship if I were to confess and express myself. However, I have to say that problem was already there even before my return... No one should be blamed. None.

I know what she wants, and am able to give her all she wants. I have the ability. I touched and crossed upon my heart to say that, what I've told her, are never just words. My only disadvantage that's misleading that those were words without action, is the fact that I am overseas, and I won't be around her at the moment. Physically I can't promise anything, other then shortening my tour. Now everyone's asking me, what the reason... am I suppose to tell everyone that I'm a bastard and destroyed someone else's relationship? That's not the case. I'm earning salary that's almost two times fresh diploma graduates... shortening my tour means lesser income... 6 months... 6 months is almost equivalent to 20K!! Am I not sacrificing? I know she needs me too. That's why I made my decision. There are some things which can't be bought using money, Love and Happiness is one.

I even told myself, this is not just gonna be about me and her alone. Its gonna be my family, her family, her friends, my friends, our friends too. Can u imagine marrying someone and his/her family members can't accept u? I'm doing all I can to try my very best to find out what has been going on on her part. I spent sleepless nights thinking bout our future. Yes, I know she wants a famliy of her own. This is the one thing that I've also always wanted.

Just before I left for Borneo, she requested for a hug. My reply to her was, 'it's not so nice' because I know very well that she's attached. I left... Alot of thoughts crossed my mind while I was in the holding area awaiting departure, in the air craft and even when I've already returned here. It was only when I read her blog , and got GR to help me confirmed some stuffs with her before I called her up and talked it out. Is it wrong of her to go after her own happiness? And is it wrong for me to do the same too? End of the day, it's HER happiness.

I didn't even ask her for a decision, knowing that it's gonna be unfair to her as I won't be around for her. At the same time, here I am, enduring and persevering, holding onto every branches that I can find, working hard for our future if there's any.. Since the day I came to Borneo, I left my cards back in Singapore. I survived on an average $250 per month on my remittance. Saved.... for? Can anyone imagine how lonely it is to be all alone in a total different environment, away from ur family and loved ones? Can anyone imagine how's the feeling like, when u cant even bring ur love one out for a meal, cant even give her a very simple hug, cant even get to see her??? I'm going through all these.

I'm not trying to tell u guys how great I am. But now that I understand and know how she feels towards me too, I have nothing to hide. Of course I'm happy. But following this, I have lots to worry about too. how to maintain this kinda long distance relationship? How to get along well with her family members? How to be there for her when she needs me most? All these are yet to be solved... -_-"

As for Gene, I'm glad u cared so much for ur sis... it's totally fine with me that u can't understand what happened at all... its totally fine with me that u think I'm being despicable... its totally fine with me that you're calling me a bastard... its totally fine with me that u won't like me.. Most important thing now is, ur sis really needs the both of u and ur younger sis care, support and company... Ur sis loves u two alot... I know u girls love her as much. I'm still holding on and standing strong on my stand. I love her...

p.s: U can never please everyone in the room, u can never have the best of both world... Only perseverance and time would be able to tell...

A Promise is A Promise

2008-07-20T01:08:00.002+08:00

Satureday, 20 July 2008

Today's my off day. Went off out, to Gadong, The mall.
First thing first, I was suppose to wake up at 8am and prepare board the OFF VEHICLE at the pick up point. But!!! I overslept and woke up at 8.50am instead -_-" Was so rush!! Frankly, I shower without soap and shampoo =x Just anyhow splash only... then delayed the others for like 5 minutes~~ Lol... Luckily no one complains... haha!! Sorry guys...

Anyway, went to Gadong, The Mall. Shopping spree today. Bought some clothes and two pairs of shoes. To prepare for my performance, the singing performance coming soon. Spent like 200 over dollars? Ya... on food also. I bought an extra psp battery also. Cos always not enough to last me thru... haha... I'm a gamer!! =)

Anyway, I finally am at ease on mind... I've talked to her, told her what I want. She understands and we've cleared our doubts on each other... so good... so happy.... so relaxed now.

Not gonna be too wordy, these coming few days am gonna be quite busy with rehearsals on singing and lion dance... I suddenly feel so enriching!! I love this feeling... Thanks... =)

Some Pictures taken @ the Happy Hour July '08

2008-07-18T05:04:00.011+08:00

That's gotta be Me & Ali

Me, receiving my prize and trophy from CMD's Hand

Roy, Gerald & Me

Me and the Referee Fadli

My 'daughter' and I (actually that's Si Yin, SSG Chung's kid)

The 2 finalist, Sing Wei & Me

That's me, Gerald in red cap and Roy

Bee Bee & Scorpion

Kun Kun & Bee Bee

Fadly & Me

Me & Aleem (Ali extra sia~~)

9-Ball Pool Championship Finals cum Happy Hour July '08

2008-07-18T03:56:00.002+08:00

The day started of with me receiving a call at 8 plus am, to attend the conference, standing in for Roy as he was not around in camp. As usual, rushed like hell... Run like a mad guy towards the conference room. It was regarding the Creative Day... TODAY IS CREATIVE DAY!!! I totally lost count of my schedule... -_-" Didn't even realise that I was suppose to be leading my team till last minute.. Hectic kick-start of the day... Anyway, I didn't sleep well last night... Some things were bothering me... my mind was empty...

Tonight was the my night. Its the Happy Hour for July '08. One of the main event was the 9-Ball Pool Championship, featuring Sing Wei and I, the last two man standing. Right from the start of the first game, I screwed up everything... The mood's not right... I wasn't putting in any effort to play it... I lost the whole game even before I knew it.. However, displaying sportsmanship spirit, I congratulate Sing Wei on being crowned the Champion of LC... I could only be the 1st runner up in LC.... anyway, it didn't really bother me much... really...

I called up her right after the game, talked for a while, hung up and then I just sat right there for like whole 10 minutes, once again, mind was blank... that kinda feeling really sucks... So unrealistic... so unnatural... so uncomfortable...

I've been thinking alot alot these few days since I came back from Singapore... I try not to let my emotion cross the line, I simply hide things to myself, carry on working as usual... maybe I'm trying to escape reality? Or could it be I'm just ignorant and don't know what to do? I really had no idea... Happy Hour ended and I went back for a shower... still brainstorming on what's going on in me... I have the problem, yet I have no solution to it at all... =x Called GR up and talk to him bout it, talked for quite some time... I derived at what should be done... He didn't tell me much either... just some casual comments... he couldn't help me at all either... Sigh...

I really didn't expect this to happen.... yet it did... running away was no solution, I have to face it all eventually... anyway I'm away from Singapore, I'm all alone... Except my two damn close buddy here in Brunei... =)

My conclusion was at such:

Would it damage me more if I chose to keep mum and nothing gets done, or would it hurt more if I were to speak it up and things turn ugly?? Will I regret at the end of the day??

Contradicting huh?? I feels that way too.. after much consideration, I've decided to speak it up... If it turns out unfavourable for me, at least I've pour out my heart, rather then to keep mum and then regret for the rest of my life. I'm not gonna bother on how people are gonna talk behind my back... Not gonna care how people looks on me... All I know is that I don't wanna regret at all, not at all!!

Time was 11.50pm when I started talking to Gerald as well as Roy. We all have our own problems... we talked bout our problems, our worries... Roy's case was worse then mine... yet mine isn't any better either. We are both EGO at hearts and are not willing to open up ourselves to the problem. Gerald was rather supportive... Gave alot of advice to both of us... At the end of the conversation, Roy has decided to re-submit his extension of tour... as for me, I am a little more clear about what I want, and how to go about expressing it.

Gerald's words strike me, 'Bee Bee, If you're gonna remain at the same spot where you are now, you'll never move on...'

I'm really happy that I've met Roy and Gerald over here... we're like one family, more then friends... we love each another, we care for each another.. When one is down, the other two will put in the effort to cheep him up, drink with him... I'm really thankful to have them around me... They made my LONELY world over in Borneo totally changed.... from what used to be in black and white, to how colourful it is now...

Thanks Roy, Thanks Gerald...

Time is now 4.29am, 18th July 2008... I've come up to my office to update my blog... I couldn't sleep anyway... Roy and Gerald were fast asleep.... I couldn't bear to wake them up... I needed to be alone anyway... So here I am... updating post... checking mails... I can't go any further, I need to start thinking again... I have to! I must!

Good night to everyone, those back in Singapore as well as fellow colleagues... Rest well...

p.s: When the whole world denies you, I'll still be standing firm right beside... just turn around and look at me, you'll find that the earth we're standing on is still rotating...
I don't wanna miss a thing.... I hope you too wouldn't....

Injury~ Injury ~ Injury~

2008-07-16T14:49:00.002+08:00

Last night was rather tired, that's why no post. Anyway, nothing much for ytd, just slacking around until night at around 10pm. Lee Siang came to our bunk with some alcohol he brought back from his LABUAN trip. Its called the banana split... one side is banana milk, 15ml with 15% alcohol, the other chocolate, 15ml with 15% alcohol too. That actually make up a total of 30% alcohol per shot glass... There were six shot glasses. We play dai dee... I lost once and had to drink it. IT WAS VERY NICE!!!! $33 for 6 shot glasses of 'banana split'. Lee Siang had 2, Roy 1, and Gerald 2. We finished up the six glasses of alcohol, and felt like, 'eh, not enough lehz... not high at all... so, Gerald suggested to use the same glasses again, but this time with Vodka and Beer, 15ml each... -_-" The taste was hell. Vodka itself contains 40% of alcohol, and the beer we mix with was special kind too... Think total alcohol percentage was like 45%?!? That's alot la~~

This time round, everyone was rather scare to drink.... the blend indeed sucks to the max. I guess all were praying hard not to lose any rounds. Results went like these...

1st round - LOSER Lee Siang
2nd round - LOSER Lee Siang
3rd round - LOSER Me =(
4th round - LOSER Me =( X2
5th round - LOSER Roy
6th round - LOSER Gerald (in addition, he had one extra 30ml shot on Vodka neat)

Lol... all ended up face red red... damn funny... boring ppl do stupid things!!
We had nothing to play with, only alcohol, which we kept alot with us..

This morning suppose to wake up at 6.30 to do taking over then at 7am was HLS (healthy lifestyle) ... I couldn't wake up despite have my alarm right beside me =x Pulled my damn freaking sleepy soul out of bed, and rushed like hell. Its already 7.05am!!! I missed the taking over, and HLS has commenced!! -_-"
Ran all the was up to the court, and saw that they had started doing the warming up.. joined in, no one questioned me... no one really asked me for resaon why I'm late... =) Guess my PR here still not bad... Haha.... played Captain's Ball today for HLS... My team was the champion out of the 4 total teams. We beat the 'obeased' team, the 'tall-men' team, and the 'youngsters' team...
It was my first time playing games with WO Alvin and WO Rothmat... they are old, but still energentic... lol.. GOOD GAME!

Then at 10am, start working in accordance to the new shipment beddings... sweat hell lots... Weather was killing each and everyone of us slowly... Nevertheless, guys from various department turned up to help us... we completed everything at 2.30pm. The 4 and a half hours were torturing... yet fun... though all were working very hard... but at least all of us sweat together, smoked together, eat together, get dirty together... I love this kinda bonding... =)

Direct boss not around today... feels so good, feels so easy... I hope its gonna be a good day that follows... I feel burning sensation over my body, especially shoulders and arms and my back, we were under the damn sun for the 4 hours plus, without our shirt on.. -_-" I guess its sun burnt! Painful painful painful. Anyway, In the process of working, I hurt my right ankle while pulling the stacker up slope... hurt my fingers when something dunno what came crashing down on it... back aching like hell.... am going to medical centre to dress bandage on it... hopefully the swell will go away asap... PRAYING HARD!!

*when I finally see ur true smile, that's the moment I know there's no more obstruction between us*

Cohesion Day

2008-07-15T07:43:00.002+08:00

14th July 200, Monday.

Its our Dept's Cohesion Day.. so rare to see everyone in the department to wake up so early. We're to consume our breakfast for the day n the cook house, and menu was Burger with Milo.. =)
All were rather bored initially, because of the schedule for the day... Moving from places to places.

After breakfast, meet up at pick up point. That's where the bus will pick us up and proceed to out various destination. I wore a brown bermuda, a green T-shirt, a pair of sneakers and the cap I made at far east back in SG. With a sling bag, containing my most important PSP that's gonna kill my boredom along the way, my wallet, coin purse as well as my extra shorts and towel. Was planning to have a swim at one of our destination, Selapon River.

Our very 1st check point was the boat launch area. This is where most of our boats during exercises launch. Nothing much here, just a small river and a cemetery. Had my very first mozzie bite here, right on my ankle!! -_-" We travelled like half an hour, ust to spend like ten bloody minutes there =x
Next was the Selapon River. We had sandwiches ready made, and drinks available. While most of them changed into their shorts to get a lil cooling sensation from the natural river water, which flows down from a nearby mountain, me and a few others were sitting around, playing with our PSP, talking craps and happily eating the food. I changed my damn idea bout swimming the moment I reach the place. The water is so cold!!!! Raymond borrowed my shorts in the end...
The guys seem to really enjoy themselves at Selapon. Swinging from a rope and later release themselves into the river. I remember seeing Yasser swing naked!!! Lol... and the rope that he was clinging to accidentally cut his..... u know?? Lol... Other places includes Mini Zoo, which has a total of less then ten types of animals.. -_-" It's really mini for god's sake.. Haha... then there's this Piano Bridge, Lutoot Bridge, and a place where most of us indulge in picking up crystal stones, and all sorts of rare, hard-to-find stones and pebbles. MSG Chung was greedy, he pick a stone around the weight of 2KG!!! Faintz... For me, I managed to picked 3, one for myself, one for Gerald and the other for Roy, my suck cock buddies here in Brunei.

The event wraps up with whold lot of us having our dinner at the guest house of temburong, with a $3.00 Buffet.... super worth~~

Return to camp and saw Gerald and Roy inside bunk, they had abandoned me for Labuan, a place in malaysia where most guys here will visit, for the clubs, drinks, food, and of cos LUST!! Not bad though, they bought me a watch, and a bermuda, freaking cute la!!! Thanks guys~

Anyway, I've decided that my posts will not be uploaded with any pictures.. My main motive is to share with u all bout my life, happenings, and updates while I'm away from singapore, the pictures that I took, will share with u guys when I return to singapore again ya? =) Love you people so much... Miss my bike so much, hope YP will really take good care of it for me.. Thanks dude!

p.s: more updates, more interesting things to share with u people when i go for off again this coming weekend!

STAY TUNED!!!

Off to Town, Shopping~!!!

2008-07-13T22:08:00.004+08:00

Went to sleep quite early last night, as I took all the pills
prescribed by the medical officer. Out of the four, three
causes drowsiness -_-"

I was woken up by a phone call this morning at 7.00am.
It was Khairul... asking me to wake up for our off-out!!
After hanging up, I dozed off again as usual..
When I finally climbed out of my bed reluctantly, it was
already like 7.20am... had to rush to wash up, collect
the clothes from the dryer, as well as shower...
Changed and sprayed the perfume Huiling and gang
gave me, styled up my hair, and off to the pick up
point, where everyone else was... damn lot of people
went for off today... LOL... rather fun though.

Went to Yayasan for breakfast along with Khai, Fad,
Sze Han... Had Hongkong tim sum there.. not bad..
after which proceeded to the jetty, took a super speed
boat to Kiulap, cos Fad suggested going for massage,
and everyone agree, didnt want to be a spoil spot..
so i went along. Anyway F.Y.I, the massage here are so
freaking painful. Think all the masseurs can go fight
wrestling... haha... Opted for the 1 hour session, quite
worth it though, was 30bucks..

After massage, was already around 12plus in the noon.
Went to the nearby shop that sells army stuffs. Bought a
Sling Bag at 27bucks, just a normal sling bag for my PSP
and wallet and stuffs like that.

Took a bus, No. 20 to Gadong, The Mall. Had our lunch
there. Ordered Maweke Udon (seaweed noodle) and a
side Sashimi. Delicious and fulfilling!! After that, continued
to shop around. Bought some badges for my bag and a watch.
The others spent like hell on clothes, shoes etc etc...
Slacking around after that, sitting down from place to place,
waiting for time to pass.

Time was 4.30pm when we left for Subok, the place where we
take the water taxi back to temburong. In the boat, saw this girl
sittng right opposite me. She was so petite, B~E~A~U~tiful...
Khai insisted she was a malay, but i know she isn't... She has got
to be a chinese. She's very very fair, had long straight hair. I did
glanced at her secretly, but I guess she knew, because she was
kinda smiling back at me for a while.. haha... SHE SMILED AT
ME!!! =) End of the day, i didnt approached her at all even after
we dis embarked at temburong...

Went to had dinner, Nasi Katok as usual... before heading back
to camp... Did some area cleaning, fold my clothes, went for
a shower and took my medicine. Rather bored in my bunk, as
Gerald and Roy has went for overseas leave to Labuan, the red
light district. So decided to go to Khai's bunk to talk cock with
them for awhile, and borrowed some DVDs from them.
Ended up here in the MESS using my lappy to msn with cat and
GR....

Its raining outside... I guess tonights gonna be another lonely
night for me, sleeping alone in the bunk, with no one to talk to
yet again... Sometimes I wonder, have I made the right choice?
Should I extend my term here?? For the money....... maybe I
really might... For time to come, shall see about it... Sigh....

OMG!! It's 38.2 degree celsius~~ Faintzz....

2008-07-12T16:27:00.003+08:00

I really didnt expect it to be that bad.
When I cough, my flam carries some blood on it,
when I sneeze, i feel so painful at my throat.
Whole body temperature rising..

Went to report sick,
took temperature and it was 38.2 degree Celsius...
They wanted to put a drip on me!! But knowing me,
I'm most afraid of needles and injections... who would
I approve of that. End up just get Paracetamol for my
fever, Antibiotics, pills for my running nose, and lozenges
for my inflammation tonsils...

I feel so sleepy, so tired... =x
My body feels lifeless...
am I dying soon??

God Bless Me

Today is BO CHENG HU day

2008-07-12T08:39:00.002+08:00

Hey, peeps.. this is gonna be my very first post. 1st, I'm gonna tell u a lil
more bout my daily routines, before I go further into details. =)

7.00am - Woke up, have a stick of energy bar (cigarette) before I
proceed to shower and brush my teeth.

7.30am - Stroll my way up to my office, saw the Duty Officer there..did
taking over of my work area from him. Had another 2 sticks
of energy bar.

8.00am - Saw most of my branch guys... all the big shots are going off
out today.... NO GOVERNMENT DAY!!!!

8.15am - Here I am in my office, putting up my very 1st post =) Haha...

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I've just returned back from my indulgence leave from Singapore few
days back, on the 9th of July '08. For personnels who're posted overseas
for a year or more, we are entitled with 1 X Home leave. The Indulgence
and the Bonus leave are depending on our performance thru daily work,
IPPT results as well as code of conduct. Needless to say, I got my Indulgence,
meaning to say, I've performed well enough, and deserve the short break!!

I went to lots of places where in the past I didn't find attractive, fun or
enjoyable. Town, parks, Champions way... Except for this trip,
I've been visiting KK Hospital quite frequently. To pick and send a friend
from her work. Just a friend... -_-"

I've enjoyed the day where Catherine, Kai, Victor, Yingying, Jason, Shun Cai,
Huiling and Yuxuan arranged at Zero-Point pub. Thanks for all your kisses,
the gigantic welcome back famoua amos cookie, and of cos the time spent.
Though I've longed to sing with Huiling again, but end up she didn't sing.
Then there's this GAY working in the pub... keep on disturbing me. So I had no
choice, but to lie that I'm attached to Kai... she helped me thru though =)
But why Kai?? Here's my explanation, Huiling's really attached to Denny,
Yingying is Victor's wife.. Only left with Cat and Kai. Given Cat's personality,
she would have killed me if I were to 'BORROW' her name. In anyway, I'm also
closer to Kai ma... So Cat, don't be jealous la huh~

Then there's of cos my bunch of brothers and sisters from Riverside Sec.. They are
namely Guorong, Yongping, Juncai, Lester, Kiat Jiun (暧昧), Grace, Chu Ai
(爱你不是两三天), Jasper, Ah Boy, and Guoxiong. We had fun eating out, pubbing,
racing against each other in the arcade on Maximum Tune 4. Am very greatful my
friends still remembers me. GR, GX, LESTER, JC and I went to Zouk. Was freaking
boring in there, so i went off earlier at ard 12plus am.

I went to touched up my tattoo, Grace was with me throughout. She spent almost all
her off days accompanying me to places like Army Market for my badges, Far east
for the DIY caps, Bugis for praying, Hougang to collect stuffs... So in return for her
kindness, I volunteered to send her to work as well ass pick her up after work. We
are just friends... come on... -_-" She's getting married... I wouldn't wanna become a
3rd party, destroying others relationships... I swear... I really am not the sort!!

I had food which can't be found that easily in Borneo most of the time when I'm in
Singapore. Sushi, McDonalds, Subway, Pastas... also not forgetting Prawn Noodles,
Wonton Mee, Chicken rice, Kway Chup and Tim Sum... drooling already.... shit!
Back here in Borneo, food I take are by cookhouse NS chefs, Or IndoMee, a type of
maggie mee... haiz... incredibly, I still manage to put on some weight.

Today is the second time I fell sick in borneo since I posted here. First time not so bad,
had a super flu, mucus keep on coming out of my nose. But got well after a day
taking the medicine. Now very ChiaLat... super sore throat. Cannot eat, cannot drink
cannot smoke also... and I feel terrible... =x

Anyway, I'm not gonna drag this on too long, or it'll end up being real boring to
read my blog.

I guess thats all for my 1st post?? Thanks for reading. Leave me some comments
if possible... and I really Love u guys~~!!

Take care and keep coming in for update on new posts!

Pictures might be uploaded soon. Waiting for them to send me.. -_-"